Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Not the present I was hoping for.....

Well........yesterday came and went and I didn't hear anything from the interview I had had a couple of weeks ago......so.......as I went to bed I was thinking....well......maybe the interview didn't go as well as I thought it had........well......tonight after supper I got the call........NOT AT ALL WHAT I WAS HOPING FOR........he said with the economy like it is he's going to wait it out before opening his business........I told him I totally understood and thanked him for calling........ all while I was falling apart inside..........when I hung up the tears started falling and it was nothing I could do at the moment to get myself together.........Thank God for the suite life of Zack & Cody which kept Corey occupied while I was having my break down........not a pretty sight........

So........... I spent a couple of hours having a GINORMOUS pity party for one........how can one phone call just change everything so fast?..........I'm now back to square one of being un-employed and now not even a hope for anything...........and an 8 year-old that wants everything.........I'm very thankful I've already taken care of Christmas for him........What in the world?.....Now what?.............It's really hard to be my age and to have lost my job and to have to start all over again............no wonder I toss & turn all night........and on top of all that.........I feel an incredible amount of guilt for even worrying about a job anyway........there are so many people out there that have real problems and tragedies..........how can I be so self-centered?????

So..............I'm going to go to bed.......take a 'Big Girl Pill' and stop feeling sorry for myself and trust God and his plan for me and my family..............and remember tomorrow is a new day with a new beginning..........and after Christmas is over I will re-group and get out there and find me a job..........

Sorry for all the whining!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

13 comments:

Mandy said...

I am so sorry things aren't working out. If I hear of anything, I will let you know. Try not to let it get you down because the holidays are here and it is no time let things worry you. Hopefully the new year will bring you a better outcome! I will be praying for ya!

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Rhonda said...

Oh Shari, I am sorry you didn't get the anwswer you wanted...but there is still hope. I will continue to pray that you will find something soon. Like Mandy said the holidays are here and it is no time for worry. (Easier said than done, I know) We are all rooting for you, that you find something soon.

Michele said...

I am so so sorry Shari that it didn't work out. Something will work out for you, I will be praying for ya. And you unload on your blog all you want to, that's what we're here for SUPPORT! Try to clear your mind today and start with a new outlook as hard as it may seem. All of your fellow bloggers will pick you up...you all sure have helped me in the last few days:-)

Kelly said...

Shari! I am so sorry! I am such a bad friend. I thought about you all day yesterday wondering if you had heard anything, but never took the time to call. I was so busy and ill about work that I didn't take the time. I am so, so sorry. Maybe it's better that you didn't get this job. If he closed before, and couldn't decide whether or not to re-open, who is to say a few months down the road he wouldn't close again. God has something else in mind for you and we are just going to have to pray really hard for it.

Judson's Mommy said...

I am so sorry... Hopefully after the new year something will come up. I will be saying a prayer for you.

Donielle said...

Oh, I'm so sorry. I know that must be heartbreaking and stressful. But like Kelly said, the Lord must have something better for you. So, maybe you can just enjoy being home for the holidays and start fresh after. I hope your days get better!

Mary Lou said...

Hang in there Shari! If that job didn't work out for you, the Lord must have something better planned for your future. Keep the faith and trust in the Lord and it will all work out.

Kelly said...

I Love your header picture! All dressed up and sitting on a tractor! Too cute! I saw Colin this morning! I waved and waved but I don't think he saw me! :)

Biggie's Girl... said...

Sorry.. and you have your pity party up here ANYTIME, that's what we're here for.. What kind of work are you looking for?

Shari said...

I'm thinking after 18 years in childcare I'd like to do something different.....I have an associate degree in Business Administration so I think I'd like to do something using that. Thanks!

Judi said...

It is very hard during the Holidays. After the first of the year things have to get better. Hang in there and keep the faith. God will provide.

Missy's Blog said...

I just know things will turn around after the first of the year. You will find your dream job and get it.